“Sign”

We've heard about them. Read about them. I believe in them. A probable coincidence. A mere twist of fate. Or maybe, just maybe, a close encounter with God. I am not sure. Yesterday, we went to Carmelite (for those who might not know it, it is a church/monastery). Yesterday, I needed enlightenment. I was in so much gloom. I did not know what to do or where to go. I did not know which path to take because everywhere I go it seemed the world is closing its doors on me. I needed an assurance from Him. I needed to know that in the end, all the pain would be worth it. I badly needed to know if he'll be there, at the end of my journey. I needed a "sign". I asked for the "sign" at about 5:20 PM.

At exactly 7:39 PM, it happened. I did not expect it to happen that fast, that early (not in my wildest, weirdest dream). I felt a sudden burst of overwhelming emotions. Yeah, as mushy and corny as it may sound, I cried. I did not know know what exactly I felt or thought right at that moment. I just know it is from Him and it felt so right. There is an unidentified "something" in my heart that kept on pounding yet my mind still could not grasp nor decipher nor make sense of it. Damn. That "sign". That "single word". That "word" meant the world to me at that moment. It summed up all that I was waiting for for a month.

Call me corny pero believe me, it happens. It happened.

NB: There is a distinction between Him and him, okies?!ü

Wala

 jack sparrow. u got to love him. hehe.

The Unbearable Lightness of Being

Bought the book last night. It was on sale. 20% discount. Very good. Hehe. So far, so good. Been reading it since I got home. Here is an excerpt from the book…

"If every second of our lives recurs an infinite number of times, we are nailed to eternity as Jesus Christ was nailed to the cross. It is a terrifying prospect. In the world of eternal return the weight of unbearable responsibility lies heavy on every move we make. That is hwy Nietzche called the idea of eternal return the heaviest of burdens (das schwerste Gewicht).

If eternal return is the heaviest of burdens, then our lives can stand out against it in all their splendid lightness.

But is heaviness truly deplorable and lightness splendid?

The heaviest of burdens crushes us, we sink beneath it, it pins us to the ground… The heaviest of burdens is therefore simultaneously an image of life's most intense fulfillment. The heavier the burden, the closer our lives come to earth, the more real and truthful they become.

Conversely, the absolute absence of a burden causes man to be lighter than air, to soar into the heights, take leave of the earth and his earthly being, and become only half real, his movements as free as they are insignificant.

What then shall we choose? Weight or lightness?"

Heto pa..

"Not even one's own pain weighs so heavy as the pain one feels with someone, for someone, a pain intensified by the imagination and prolonged by a hundred echoes…" 

The book was originally written in Czech.

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I also bought James Frey's A Million Little Pieces. Hmm.. I don't know why. I've heard about it and read about it but it didn't struck me much. But when I saw that it was dirt cheap at 20% off. I bought it right then and there. Impulsive buyer?! Hehe. After Kundera's book, I'll start reading Frey's book and I think it would take me months to finish it. It is quite thick with a font size of 7. Come on! Hehe.

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I should be studying for our Physics exam by now. I should be doing my report in STS. But, what the hell am I doing in front of the computer, ranting about nothing in particular?! Hay.. That's how my life is. Can't keep my head focused on acads. You know, I really have short attention span. If a goldfish has 5 seconds, an autistic 10 seconds, hmm.. I have 3 seconds or less. Hehe. I need to feel under pressure before studying. I am a true-blue "procrastinator." I work pretty well under stress. Weird noh?! Hehe.

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I watched Homeboy hours ago. It featured bands in the Kami nAPO Muna Album. Itchyworms, Parokya Ni Edar, Kamikazee, Imago, Shamrock, Orange and Lemons, Spongecola. Waaahh!! An excellent roster of talents. Today's topic is "Awit ng Barkada". The bands were funny and they all shared a common love for music. La lang. Hehe.

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Here's today's dose of lyrics.

ENDLESS A SILENT WHISPER by Urbandub

The night belongs to us
We’re caught in a world of our own
We cling to the hope it would change for us
Is it in vain? Is it too late?
Why did it have to be you than I.
I heard the news today.

Is this the beginning of our last dance?
Once around the floor, can we do it again?
I feel the thrill from words we say,
I love you.

Embrace so much tighter
This could be our last together
Heaven sheds tears for the wounded hearts
Our forever has been torn apart

Our vast religions
Won’t help us answer
What was pre-destined for us to have
Since long ago.
It’s hopeless

The world it turns with us
Hold me in closer, don’t let go of me
Now we close our eyes and let go to the night
The night we feel alive.

Untitled

Finally, I have launched my blog to earthlings. Hehe.

Anyway, I was proofreading my previous when I realized my blog was all about me and myself alone. Hehe. I've been blog-hopping for 2 years now. I've read a number of blogs of people who I don't really know. Compare to them, damn, my blog is nothing but an outlet of emotions and nothing more. Not that I actually expect myself to be just like them. I just hope, I could write more meaningful, more thought-provoking, and more profound posts. Hay.. Someday.

I wish I was a prolific writer. I wish I could express myself more through writing. I wish I could inspire people. I wish I could make a difference. I wish I knew how it would be to be free.. (ha?! kanta yata un ah?! hehe.)

Blah Part 2

Waaahh!! BMS Acquiantance Party was exhaustingly fun. Helluva swimming party-slash-videoke party-slash-kainan party. Hehe. Food is great and plenty. However, the fried chicken and palabok ran out. Huhu. Music is uhmm.. good?! Joke. Hehe. I enjoyed the videoke showdowns. Really. Swimming?! Love it. Super fun. Salamat sa synchronized swimming ha. Hehe. Basta, I really enjoyed the ty-par. More to come sana. Hehe.

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Ask me about Rotaract?! Waaahhh!! Kaloka. Kapagod. But, I'm really thankful that I'm a part of this hardworking/driven/compassionate/fun organization (Wushu!). Hmm.. As stated in our oath, I promise to do my best as a Rotaractor and Rotaract Officer. I promise to be of "Service Above Self" and to "Lead The Way".

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About him. He's well. We're fine. As if. Haha. Can't tell much about him in here. Sorry.

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Hay.. I'm so tired physically, emotionally, and mentally. STS Report on September 2. Physics Report on the 2nd week of September. Rotaract Summit on September 1-3. Student Council Planning Chorva on September something. Waahh!! Kaloka talaga.