Just When I Thought Things Are Going Better…
Sunday, April 15, 2007…I lose it all.
I hate doing nothing. It gets me into wishful thinking, depressing thoughts, and hasty generalizations.
Yeah, the rumors are true. We are not going anywhere with this. I thought I had it all figured out. I thought I knew you. I thought we were good. 8 months. That was long enough but where am I now? Back from the start without you. Without us. Yeah, good things never last. Right now, I doubt whether I really had the good things. Were they good at all?
Shet. I hate you for the choices you make. I hate you for that damned five-letter-word. It is your weakness but you are not doing anything about it. I hate you because you let your mind rule over your heart. You have nothing to lose and yet you still play the game safe. Too safe. Lastly, even if you deny it, I know that you are still not over your past. It haunts you because you made the wrong move. You loved her. You lost her. Where does that leave you?! I hate you.
