A Summer Ago
Monday, October 29, 2007All I could remember was that a summer ago, I was alone. He left me wounded and fazed after several weeks of cold war and utter ignorance. I cried for nights feeling stupidly pitiful for myself. I dragged myself every morning to the reality that the long dream was over. I was at a complete loss and I thought I had nowhere to go.
And then, I met a friend who had helped me cope with life after a sad loss. It was hard for me to trust again but eventually I did. He helped me a lot emotionally by believing in who I really am and making me realize my mistakes. He never judged me based on my shortcomings and narrow thinking. Although he may be demanding sometimes, he always respected my decisions. I learned a lot about him (you know how much a lot here meansJ) and from our daily conversations I learned more about myself from him. Even though, we have our differences (indeed, they are too many to mentionJ), we could not care less. He made me accept the fact that I am competitive and I do not want to be outwitted. He demanded me to respect others’ opinions especially if they are against mine. He made me believe that I am beautiful and sweet (FunnyJ). He made me appreciate Dashboard Confessional music more (Ghost of A Good ThingJ). He argued with me in almost every societal issue (Boxing? Abortion? PGMA Resign?). Armed with super corny jokes, he made me laugh (Ngeni mu o!). He made me realize that the movie A Love Story was nothing but A Story (Wrong!). He made me appreciate the life I live. He was a crying shoulder, a shock absorber, and a daily journal. He was more than I expected him to be.
Hmm… Just now, I realized the impact he had in my life. Like I have always told him, things would not be the way they are now if I did not have him. Even if he caused complexities and headaches, I really could not imagine my life without him in it. But if the “circumstances” he is in right now could no longer accommodate me in his life, I would succumb and sacrifice my happiness for his own. I would just like him to remember that I would forever be grateful for having met someone like him. If some day, the “circumstances” clears out, expect me to be at his side just like he did a summer ago.
Bye for now. ThnksFrThMmrs. I would still be your wonderwall. Be happy.J
