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Wednesday, November 28, 2007

I have nothing sensible to say. Yet, I feel an urge to write. I am overwhelmed with so much emotions that I get so confused. For several days now, I wake up happy and sleep lonely. I know what is wrong but I find no courage to face and conquer it. My cowardice in facing the bitter realities of life gets the better of me. That's why I still am stuck to my problems and I could not move on.

Shet. May sense pa ba ang mga pinagsasabi ko?! Heck, I could no longer understand myself.

Ang gulo ng puso ko. Anu ba yan?! Hmf.

Is there a point in blogging about my despairs? Like someone cares noh?! Haha.

BEST advice that a friend gave me: FIX YOUR LIFE!!! (translation: ayusin mo buhay mo!) I'd like to tell him that there's nothing to fix but when I think it through… He really is right. F*ck. =/

It will pass.

Monday, November 26, 2007

"It's best to master my fear, to be worthy of the words I wrote, and to understand that, however bad the storm, it will eventually pass."

I could not say more. Hmm… It will take time but, I know, it will pass. Then, it will all be over.

90 Things You May Not Have Known About Me (DAW! haha.)

1. What is the last alcoholic beverage you drank?
: GM.. haha. go bms! haha.

2. What are you currently listening to?
: speeding cars by imogen heap

3. Who took this survey before you?
: got it from friendster bulletin, posted by a high school friend.

4. Who was the last person to send you a text message?
: 222. haha. seriously, si birthday boy rochie. yihee! manlilibre. haha.
 
5. Last time you went to the beach?
: waaaaah. super tagal na. huhu. nung naghundred islands pa ata kami, which was years ago. wahaha.

6. Are you happy?
: i'm thankful to be alive today. but, overall, i'm not happy, not even close to smiling.

7. Where was the last place you went shopping?
: sm clark.

8. Where did u go today?
: school lang. naks! bait ah..

9. Where do you live?
: at home.

10. Last thing you ate?
: tofiluk.

11. Want to kick anyone's @ss?
: yep!!!!!!!! sobra. kick him 'til his intestines come out of his nose. wahaha.

12. What time is it?
: it's time to move on.

13. Do you have any expensive jewelry?
: yep. pero they don't cost a fortune naman.

14 . YM or MSN?
: ym

walang #15 so Luci sings "…And I can't cry hard enough."

16. How many hours on average do you work a week?
: does household chores count as work? hehe.

17. Who do you like right now?
: wala. wushu!!! liars go to hell. wahaha. i dreamt of him several nights ago.. si ****!!! wuhoo! =)

18. Do you watch the Olympics?
: nope.

19. Last restaurant you went to?
: restaurant, as in ung may menu?! wahaha. tollhaus ata. sus. i live in a time of fastfood chains ata eh. haha.

21 . Who was the last person to call you?
: i can't remember. memory gap. wahaha.

22. What's your zodiac sign?
: sagittarius.. nice. hehe.

waaah. hindi na 90 items 'to. ang daming wala. tsk tsk. oh well, let's sing… "try to say it's over. say the word goodbye but each time it catches in my throat. you're still here in me and i can't set you free. so i hold on to what i wanted most. maybe someday we'll be friend's forever more. wish i could open up that door…" 
 
25. Where do you spend most of your money?
: food!!!! as in.

26. Where does most of your family live?
: here and abroad. haha.

27. Are you an only child or do you have siblings?
: i have 3 siblings. one brother and two sisters.

28. Ever been called a h0e/$lut?
: i don't know..

29. Ever been called a b!tch?
: i don't know and i don't really care.

may kulang ulet?!?!?!? nauubusan na ako ng kanta. wahaha. Luci sings.. "in the end, it doesn't even matter.."

34. Collect anything?
: yep.. letters tsaka mga sinusulat kong ka-jologs-an. wahaha.

35. Myspace or Facebook?
: i.ph! wahaha!!!!!

36. Do you have T-mobile?
: nope.

hmp! sino gumawa nito?! hindi marunong magbilang. wahaha. running out of sensible song, Luci says… "it's better to act like i don't care than admit that it's killing me softly.."

42. Last time you saw your parents?
: like an hour ago. hehe.

43. Ever been to a wedding?
: yep..

44. Where is ur celphone?
: tabi ko.

45. are u wearing glasses now?
: nope.

46. Are you missing anyone at the moment?
: yep, madami.. über.

47. Did you take a nap today?
: nope. i watched tv to kill time.

48. How many hours of sleep did you get last night?
: 4am to 10am. don't ask why.

56 . Do you support the troops?
: hmm.. i support the filipino people. =)

57. Could you handle being in the military?
: i don't think so. i can't wake up early.

58. Are you hungry or thirsty?
: neither.

59. Favorite fast food restaurant?
: kfc!!! finger-lickin' good at kfc.. yeah! =)

62. Do you own a camera phone?
: yep.

63. Ever had to take a sobriety test?
: nope. i rarely drink alcohol.

68. Do you have a photo hosting site that you use?
: flicker.

69. Last place you were at?
: tv room.

70. What is your current wish?
: have someone who could proudly tell everyone that i am his ONLY one.

71. Where are your grandparents?
: my living lola is in cotabato while the others are with God.

wwhhhhaaat?! kulang again? tsk tsk. Again, Luci sings… "the darkness comes and the darkness goes. ooh babe, why don;t you let it go? happiness ain't never how you think it should be."

75. Do you have any regrets?
: like i have always said, no regrets. only lessons learned.

76. what are u wearing?
: bms orgshirt and khaki shorts.

walang #77. Luci stops and thinks. She sings… "when it's over, that's the time i'll fall in love again.." 

78. fave jewelry?
: earrings and watch. that's all, thank you. hehe.

79. talent?
: next question. haha. none that i know of.

80. does sum1 hate u?
: hmm.. i don't know.

81. Favorite place to be?
: my bed.

82. Favorite sit down restaurant?
: why? may standing restaurant ba? corny ko. shet. wahaha.

83. Ever been to Disney Land/World?
: never been to any disney chuchu. huhu.

86. How is the weather today?
: gloomy like me. it rained all day.

87. Do you e-mail?
: yep. of course.

88. Last letter/piece of mail you received besides junk or a bill?
: email?? hmm.. ung galing sa yahoogroups ng rac3790.

walang #89. Luci sighs and then sings, "Paano ang puso ko kung wala ka.. (ala April Boy. haha.)"

90. Are you dating someone right now?
: hmm.. [after 10 seconds of thinking].. nope. it just ended recently.

Tanong ng Bayan

Sunday, November 25, 2007

Last post ko na 'to for the night. Promise. Hehe.

I was browsing my dashboard when my eyes caught sight of an alarming fact. My used disk space is reaching 80%. Actually, I don't know if this is really something to be bothered about o baka naman OA na naman ako. Haha. Hmm.. Are my i.ph days about to end? Waah. No!!! I would die. Really. Hehe.

Tanong ng Bayan: Anong mangyayari 'pag 100% na ang used disk space? Can I do something about it (except, of course, deleting my blog)?

 

Tanong ng Bayan (dagdag lang): Sang-ayon ka ba sa pagpapasko at new year ng mga PBB celebrity housemates sa loob ng PBB house?

Sagot: (a) I don't care; (b) Whatever; (c) Boo! Pasara na ang bahay ni Kuya; (d) Oh my God! I'm gonna die. As in, now na. Now na talaga. Argh.

I can’t sleep.

Saturday, November 24, 2007

I'm very sick of my problems…

1. What's the last mistake you made?
* falling for the wrong guy at the wrong time at the wrong situation. damn.

2. Is the sun shining?
* nope.. it's almost midnight. after my gloomy days, i hope my sun will still shine.

3. Can you successfully blow up and tie a balloon?
* nope.

4. Who were the last three people you talked to and what did you say?
* mama, ria, 1025.

5. Are you having a good/bad hair day?
* so so.

6. What was your last purchased food/drink?
* food sa red ribbon kanina.

7. Are you wearing any makeup right now?
* nope. i had just washed my face.

8. What are your plans for later?
* malamang, mag-iisip hanggang makatulog.

9. Do you own an iPod?
* yep.

10. Is there any drama within your life?
* whhaaaat?!?! my life story is the best untold drama story. wahaha.

11. What is a song they need to stop playing on the radio?
* i rarely listen to the radio lately..

12. Are you content with life right now?
* overall, yes.. however, i really need someone who could pick up the pieces 'he' broke..

13. Does anyone like you?
* sana. hehe.

14. What is your current obsession?
* writing. blogging. obvious ba??

15. Do you have a dog?
* yep, we have 4 dogs. beat that! wahaha.

16. Ever been kissed under mistletoe?
* nope. hindi ata uso un dito. hehe.

17. Would you ever kiss a stranger?
* nope..

18. Ever done a random act of kindness?
* yep yep..

19. Do your toenails have nail polish on them?
* yep.

20. When's the Last time you wore eyeliner?
* nung test shots ng grad pic.

21. Last curse word you said was?
* i don't know..

22. Are your lips chapped?
* now? nope..

23. Are you currently jealous?
* yes!!!!! =(

24. What did you do last Thursday?
* go to school.. upepp student summit ng sc..

25. Did you have a dream last night?
* yep.. i just could not remember exactly what it was all about.

26. Are you mad at anyone?
* nope, disappointed at naiinis lang.

27. What's going on this weekend?
* rest.

28. What are you listening to right now?
* i can't come down by embrace. highly recommended.

29. Anything bothering you?
* bothering!?!??!?! anak ng tokwa! oo!!! to the highest level. hehe.

30. What do you search for on YouTube?
* iba-iba.

31. Did you wish for anything last night on 11:11?
* nope.

32. Do you drink coffee on a regular basis?
* i used to drink 3x a day. seryoso. ngayon, hindi na masyado..

*****Luci ends this night by singing… "Where do broken hearts go? Do they find their way home?"