Rewind
Monday, January 19, 2009AUGUST 29, 2008 11:13PM
Written while I was on training in Cebu.
I can’t stop crying, there are just so much unspoken emotions and unsaid hurts that only tears could somehow express on their own. Sometimes, miscommunication happens when people fail to get their message across in a way they pictured it to. Hay… Ewan… I want to go home. I miss my family soooo much.
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SEPTEMBER 5, 2008 10:49PM
He never really loved me anyway. Hay… I miss having someone who cares for me and misses me. I miss having someone who reminds me how beautiful I am and how he can’t live without me. Hay…
Heart Broken A-G-A-I-N
Monday, January 5, 2009Yeah, I’ve got my heart broken again for the nth time by the same person. It’s been quite a while since I last blogged about my love life. And, unfortunately, my return is not as good as I’ve hoped it will be. My heart is down and battered again. And it could not get any worse. I’ve been through this and, lucky me, I’m going through it all again. I am sooo stupid to let it happen again—falling for someone who’s heart has never belonged to me alone. I don’t care if he reads this (probably, he will), I just need to let it all out. I’ve got my bestfriend to talk about this but, apparently, he is busy teaching English to Korean kids. Haha. Now, I only have myself and the worldwideweb to talk to. Healthy mind. Haha.
I don’t know what drew me to him. Perhaps the way he appreciates me, the way he looks at me, the way he flatters me, the way he cares for me, the way he touches me, or perhaps, just the thought of having someone to share my life with. He was never a regret although he’s one of the biggest mistakes of my life. A mistake because I thought I was doing the right thing when I had him. Sadly, like a fairytale’s twist, when the clock strikes 12, reality bites and I get to see the situation on its real perspective. I realize just how much damage I have caused him and myself. Then, I have to decide for both of us because he is so weak, he can’t decide for himself. Then, I just know have to stick to my decision, no matter how hard it is because I’m turning my back to the person just when I’m loving him too much.
