Random Stuff

Lately, I’ve become the busiest person on Earth. Kidding. Haha. I mean, before I became part of the Philippines’ labor force, I almost came second to the World’s Best Procrastinator. And here I am, killing myself at work, trying to be a hero about to save my company from damnation. Haha. What is happening to me?!? Haha.

I’m be bound to be a spinster if I don’t quit this job soon. Really. I don’t even have time to meet guys, or date them for that matter. I really feel pathetic when I talk about this. In my company, 70% are women, 10% are men, 10% are gays, and 10% are still confused and about to give in. Haha.

No matter how much I try to harass my company through blogging, I’ve learned a thing or two from them. Some coming from the mouths of people I trust and most from the lessons of hatred and despair brought by co-employees from hell. Haha.

:: Just last night, I’ve learned the sickening truth that I don’t have a sense of time. I hate waiting yet I let everyone wait for me (I am soooooo bad). According to Romel (my new conscience-slash-spiritual advisor), I always “downplay” people’s waiting time. Like I tell them I’d try to be out at 6pm yet I know I could not make it. RESOLUTION: From now on, I promise not to let anyone wait. BOW. I don’t know how but I’ll try not to be anyone’s burden anymore.

:: One thing bad about me is that I talk behind people’s back. Like when I’m pissed about “boss”, I go to people who hates her too and we’ll talk about her like she’s the worst homo sapien on earth. We’ll laugh and talk shit. I hate it when I do it but it relieves the thought of actually shooting her brains out. Haha. Kidding. I’m not that bad but I’m bad. RESOLUTION: Be more frank and confront people. It needs lots of guts but I know it’ll save me from being sent to hell after my last breath.

:: Another worth writing is my sin of, as stated above, procrastination. I guess I won’t be as stressed as today if I know how to manage my time. I’ve been working for a year now and still I have yet to learn time management skills: what is urgent and important. I keep on doing what is not worth my time. I keep on thinking that I have tomorrow to finish today’s workload. RESOLUTION: Keep a picture of my boss on my computer to remind me that if I don’t finish my tasks today, boss would haunt in my sleep. Awwwoooo! Haha. Kidding. Honestly, I promise to just keep a priority list and a to-do list everyday. It helped me before, it will help me now. I just have to do it religiously.

:: Lately, I have discovered just how much my fear of rejection could cause me. Sometimes, if I just talk and talk and not think of its possible effects to our workplace, I’d be better off. Like, if I speak out what I really feel and not fear of people hating me, I guess I’ll not have to live with all the stress and kept opinions. It won’t matter if I let my heart out for everyone to examine, what matters is that I get my point across and let people know that I actually have something to say and that I’m not a damsel in distress who gets what she wants by being pa-cute but a dignified woman who gets what she wants after fighting for it.