Blast from the Past

Have you had that day when you feel like dressing up in your best clothes with no idea why? This is exactly what I felt today. I was thinking of just wearing something casual but when I tried on my sister’s fab work attire, I knew it was the one. I had nothing important planned today. Everything went as usual. At 6:30 PM, I timed out for work. I overheard an officemate that he had something to buy in a nearby mall so I offered my company. We went to a video shop. I bought two movies I'’ve always wanted to watch, “Little Miss Sunshine” and “Under The Tuscan Sun”. While he was choosing his buys, I went out of the shop and strolled for a while until I saw a familiar face. She was a former schoolmate. She was with a familiar bunch of guys. Then, lo and behold, I found myself a few feet away from the only guy I’ve ever dated in college. For some time, I was stuck at that moment. I stared at his back half wanting to say hi and half wanting to just let it pass. Hesitantly, I looked away. I pretended to text as I walk pass them. My knees were weak. I was literally shaking. I felt butterflies in my stomach. I felt like the shy girl in movies when she sees her jock crush in their school hallway. I was giddy and at the same time regretful. I was regretting the fact that I blew the only chance I was given to finally talk to him in person after a year of ignoring each other. Sometimes, God gives us a once-in-a-lifetime chance to make things right or, at least, think things through. And sometimes, whether we like it or not, we just have to let things remain as they are, either because it’s better that way or because it would give a lesser hurt.