OCTOBER 4, 2010

He asked me to write something in my blog. I was a bit hesitant because there was nothing in mind right now that’s interesting enough to write about. I was also hesitant because it has been four years since I had this blog, I guess it’d be a disappointment to my imaginary readers if the writing has not improved over the years… same old style, topics, and level of maturity. I guess that’s how it really is in writing, no matter how much time has passed, a writer’s identity is still it. It might improve or decline but you’ll know it’s still her writing.

Oh well, enough of the blahs.

This is my tenth month in the Philippines’ largest network. It has been a final-destination-like chain of events. I had the year’s highest and lowest but as a local album goes, “Steady lang.” I can’t say I have been the happiest employee nor can I say I am the least fortunate. I enjoy what I’m doing. I brush elbows with the people I look up to. I have a healthy work environment. Yes, steady lang. Given better circumstances, this could have been the company I’d grow old with. Oh well, too much for wishful thinking, right? 

From the last time I wrote here, my parents have gone to the States and my sister has gone pregnant. It was a tough call for our family but it has only exemplified how a family becomes a wall to lean on during our most fragile moments. I have seen how much my sister tried to grow more mature in nine months. While I’m writing this, she is scheduled to give birth anytime. I’m on my toes these past days because I know that if she gets into labor, I must be there. Thinking about it gives me goosebumps and extended heartbeats. I imagine myself in one of Grey’s Anatomy episode when the pregnant holds her family’s hands and gets strength from her. I wish I could really be that for my sister. I know, despite her informidable face, is a vulnerable spirit that’s scared and ‘unsure’. If only i could literally ease her worries and help her labor, I would. Despite it all, I’m looking forward to seeing my nephew soon. I’ll be the best aunt for him and I’ll make sure that he would never ever feel ‘unplanned’. Like what his name means, he, indeed, is a gift from God to our family.